Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

Reminiscence.

Not like what we did was even considered as "have started".

And even if we continued, it wouldn't have last more than a week.

We're just so different.

i'm up, you're down.

i love this, you fancy that.

there is no way we are going to get along well, let along continue the once-considered-perfect little wish that we had.

i guess the reason why i would think back now is because of the various situations the people around me are in.

in and out, both.

and sometimes, i even envy them for having such lives.

but the thoughts that came right after the envy did not concern you at all.

and i guess that's good.

at least this means that i'm forgetting you, forgetting the moments we shared that are not really worth remembering at all. 

And i'm loving it now.

about not being with you.

but i'm still thinking whether or not to ask you to come.

i'm thinking of whether or not to see you one more time.

Maybe i shouldn't.

But i think the reason why i'm even having the thought of telling you is to test myself, to see if i feel anything if i see you again.

the same speeding of my heartbeat, the same tension, the same feeling to run away from you.

i'm betting that i will not.

and i hope i won't as well.

if i don't feel anything, well then i succeeded in forgetting you.

if i do, i'm just going to try harder to forget you.

and i believe that when that day comes, i'll laugh at myself for being so silly and foolish previously.

yes, i will.

but some things are difficult to forget.

like your handphone number,

like the various episodes of running away from you,

like the many chats we had virtually,

like the feelings i had for you previously.

and all these are silly things, and yet i just can't let go.

though i have willed myself to, and even if i really want to.

i know one day, i'll meet him, and he won't be you.

ohmy, why can't my life be as interesting as the plots of taiwan dramas?!-.-

how nice would that be!

but nevermindnevermind, i'm loving my life as it is now, and i bet it's much more exciting than you people!HAHA.

Maybe one day i should go up to some mountain cliff or something and start shouting out my troubles to the who knows how many people down at the bottom of my footing,

or maybe buy a few bottles of beer and throw them at the wall to vent my frustration,

or maybe walk on the beach and throw pebbles into the sea?

oh yea, that'll be fun.

well, no use thinking about that anymore!

work hard !

Maybe i'll tell him when it's near the date.

lol.

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